It
was late afternoon already when she returned home to break the news to Niam
Tais Paj and Yawm Txiv Txooj Sua. When she
arrived at their wooden shack, Yawm Txiv Txooj Sua was cutting wood outside. Too focused on his wood cutting, Yawm Txiv
Txooj Sua did not even notice her return.
She decided not to bother him as well so she quietly stepped inside the
home.
Noog
Xi saw Niam Tais Paj sitting on a wooden stool, polishing her silver jewelries. “I’m back,” she said. “Have you and Yawm Txiv eaten?”
“Not
yet.”
“Let
me cook then.”
She
went into the kitchen and pulled out some meat and vegetables. She scrambled a few dishes for dinner that
night.
When
the food was prepared and served, Noog Xi called Niam Tais Paj and Yawm Txiv
Txooj Sua to the dining table. They sat
around the round bamboo-woven table and ate their portion silently.
After
swallowing a few bites, the girl cleared her throat and looked at her aunt and
uncle. “Niam Tais…Yawm Txiv…I know that
we are very poor now so I found a job,” she said.
Niam
Tais Paj and Yawm Txiv Txooj Sua stopped eating. “You did?” Niam Tais Paj responded
surprisingly. “Daughter, you didn’t have
to. I didn’t mean to force you to find a
job with the words I said the other day.”
“It’s
alright, Niam Tais. I know that you and
Yawm Txiv need all the help you can get.
I am still young so let me suffer a bit.”
“What
job did you get daughter?” Yawm Txiv asked.
“A
nursing job.”
“And
when do you start?”
“Tomorrow,”
the girl answered firmly. “But, this job is not
like my previous teaching position where I can live at home and walk to work
everyday. This job requires that I live
at my work place. But before that, I
will be taking courses in Vientiane for 6 months and then spend another 6
months training in Thailand before returning here.”
“What? That’s ridiculous! I won’t let you do it! Even if we are poor now, Yawm Txiv and I will
find a way out!”
“Niam
Tais, it’s not as bad as you think. The
job pays well so that I can support us.”
Niam
Tais Paj sighed. “It’s not that,
daughter. How…how can I let an unmarried
girl live away alone? Besides, how will
I explain things to your mother when I meet her again? She will definitely think that I purposely
abandoned you!”
Noog
Xi put her plate and spoon on the bamboo-woven table. She got up and walked over toward Niam Tais
Paj. She got on her knees and
smiled.
“Niam
Tais, did you forget that I have lived away before. Actually, I have lived away for much of my
life. I will be away for a while again,
but I’ll come to visit you and Yawm Txiv whenever I have the opportunity. I can’t let you both worry about money. Besides, it would be foolish of me to spend
so many years away being educated, and then hide it all for the sake of
preserving my life. No, that’s not how I
want to live my life. I believe that mother
and father sent me to learn for a purpose, and now it is only right that I
return that knowledge to help our people.
Furthermore, I’m sure my mother will never blame you. She can only be grateful that you are here to
take care of me.”
“Daughter,
my heart becomes heavy when having to think that you are suffering out
there. You’ve gone through too much now
that I just want you to stay home and be safe.
But as much as I want to tie you to the home, I guess I won’t be able to
do that if your heart and mind are set on doing this already.”
“Niam
Tais Paj, thank you for understanding,” she said and hugged the worried woman.
That
night after finishing dinner, Niam Tais Paj forced her niece to sleep
early. She then woke up early the next
morning to make breakfast while Noog Xi packed her clothes. After having her last meal with her kindhearted
maternal aunt and uncle, she left for her journey to Vientiane.
***
Noog
Xi spent one semester at Dongdok University in Vientiane mastering human biological
courses. Her schedule was specialized
and accelerated, and she learned more materials than a regular college
student. Once the semester was up, she
was then transferred to Sririraj Hospital where she stayed for a year. She made rounds with doctors and learned
everything from how to stabilize heart rates to inserting IVs, treating and getting
wounds packed, monitoring vital signs, and giving shots and vaccinations. When she was not training at the hospital,
she was doing coursework at Sririraj’s affiliated Mahidol University.
A
year and a half swiftly brushed by, and Noog Xi returned to the familiar
setting of Sam Thong and its hospital.
Before her departure, the nurses’ dormitory construction had nearly begun. But upon her return, the dormitories were
completely built near Sam Thong Hospital.
The walls and floors were made of split wood while a tin roof covered
the top of the buildings.
After
settling into a dorm room, Noog Xi began the last of her training with
Diana. She trained intensively in
nursing practices critical at Sam Thong and out in the battle field. She learned how to amputate limbs, distribute
prescription and medications, and undertake some tasks normally reserved for
physicians like autopsies. She also
learned by serving as a teaching interpreter for Diana.
By
the time Noog Xi became comfortable doing many of Diana’s tasks, the heavy rain
had subsided and the festive time approached again. She went home for the holiday, the first time
since she’d left almost two years ago.
Niam
Tais Paj and Yawm Txiv Txooj Sua were overflowed with joy to see their dear
niece again. She too was glad to see their
familiar faces, and pleased to smell another kind of air apart from the
hospital’s medical older.
Earning
a monthly salary with her nursing job now, she gave some money to Niam Tais Paj. The woman then used it to purchase two female
chickens and a male rooster to pauj kab
yeeb—pay tribute to the Goddess of Mercy, Kab Yeeb. Yawm Txiv Txooj Sua called the family’s
spirits to return home with the two female chickens and after sacrificing them,
he offered the chickens’ cooked meat to his ancestors to ask for blessings and
good fortunes for the coming year.
Like
any town or village with Hmong residents, Sam Thong too held a festival where
the young could court and the old could greet one another. But the hospital was a busy place and it called
for her. So, even before the celebratory
days begun, Noog Xi had returned to the facility.
Now
a trained nurse, Pop Buell and Dr. Weldon promoted Noog Xi to head nurse
alongside Diana. She would also take on
the title of administrator, recruiter, and instructor of the new nursing
students.
Noog
Xi spent the remaining part of the New Year’s days planning a curriculum with
Diana. She translated Diana’s entire
course into Laotian to make it easier to teach all potential future ethnic highlander
nurses.
When
the days of Hmong New Year floated by like Sam Thong’s relentless clear
mountain stream, Noog Xi began her recruitment.
She started in Sam Thong, and then was airlifted to nearby towns like
Ban Some, Phak Khet, Pha Khao, Mouang Cha, and Ban Houakham to find female
volunteers who were willing to undergo the nurse training program, Operation
Brotherhood. After making her way
through these towns, she made her last stop in the happy valley south of the
Plain of Jars—Lima Site 20 Alternative, hidden deep inside the mountains of
Xiengkhouang.
A
1260 meter-long runway, completed two years after the population of the valley—was
visible from the sky. At the airport,
ten minutes did not go by without an aircraft landing. A few blocks away from the airport were
Americans in civilian clothes working on aircraft engines, taxiing unmarked
T-28 fighter-bombers up and down the runway.
Then, there were others surrounded by Hmong men who were learning the
art of engine maintenance. Further away
from the airport, tin shacks sat on either side of the road while living
quarters, white and pink California apartments, restaurants, bakeries, food
stalls, and playgrounds made up the famous city of Looj Ceeb.
With
tens of thousands of people residing in Looj Ceeb, the city was a bustling
desultory, business metropolis. As Noog
Xi walked down the unpaved dirt road, men and women, adults and children glided
merrily to and flooding the market place.
Some vendors sold produce on a mat on the ground, while others baked
sweet French style bread and sold it straight from stone ovens. Then, there were the vendors who displayed paj ntaub—embroideries, silver, shoes, bar
soaps, candies and delicacies all over their booth. Food stalls were crowded with consumers, who returned
home after purchasing their needs on military-jeep taxi services. It didn’t matter that this town was Looj
Ceeb, but the blacksmith were always found at the end of the market—firing up
their furnaces and dipping flaming-red metals into cold water to mold household
tools. Past the opened-market were shops
where people cobbled shoes, tailored clothes, and repaired radios. A mass of thin, metal antennas spiked out on
top of almost every building.
She
spent a couple of days in Looj Ceeb, but at the end of the trip, Noog Xi found
the necessary amount of girls needed to trial start the nursing program. Most of her participants came from here, with
some even being literate.
***
It
was already afternoon when Noog Xi finished teaching the girls the last lesson
of physiology. She led them to the main
hospital to gain hands on experience. Six
moon cycles have passed since the recruits began their training, and the girls
have become familiar and comfortable with many of the nursing practices. Although they have yet to master every
nursing duty, both soldier and civilian injuries were escalating, so there was
no time to waste. A little more training
and the recruits would have gain the necessary experience to begin taking care
of patients.
Just
as the group stepped inside the hospital, a trauma alarm began to sound. Two medics rushed a patient on a stretcher, made
of a canvas sling with long edges sewn to them to form pockets through which
wooden poles could be slid, to the operating room. The white bandage around the patient’s wound
was completely soaked in crimson blood.
Diana
rushed from the operating room to grab Noog Xi. “Three bullets and patient’s in critical
condition! You and I are needed!” Diana said
urgently.
Noog
Xi turned toward the group of trainees.
“Iab!” she called.
“Yes!”
answered a feisty girl. She possessed
well refined features, her eyes fierce, her nose bridge straight, her skin
fair, and her voice vibrated strong. One
could tell that she was someone who was sheltered throughout most of her life, so
that she developed a bold and confident character. Her full given name was Ntsa Iab, meaning
brilliance. She came from the prominent Muas—Moua, clan, strong supporters of
General Vaj Pov. Her father was Muas
Txawj Toog—Mayor of Moos Cab--Mouang
Cha, and she had been schooled with her brothers since young. She was someone who knew some English prior
to becoming a nurse.
“I’m
leaving you in charge! Take the girls to
the malarial clinic. I’ll be there as
soon as we’re done!”
Ntsa
Iab nodded.
Noog
Xi turned toward Diana, and the two hurried to the operating room. When they arrived, the medics have just laid
the injured patient onto a gurney. Noog
Xi immediately pulled the bag of intravenous fluid away from the patient and
hung it on a metal pole. She took the
patient’s vital signs and then three male doctors rushed inside—one was a
Filipino doctor named Zachary Moreno, while the other two were American doctors. One of the two American physicians included a
man name Dr. Charles Weldon, a U.S. Health Service
doctor employed by the Agency for International Development. He was Pop Buell’s partner in starting
Operation Brotherhood. .
The
two medics left the room. The
anesthesiologist instructed Noog Xi to give a morphine shot to the patient and
then he applied a continuous IV infusion of propofol. Once the patient became unconscious, the
surgeons cut his shirt and began work on extracting the bullets.
By
the end of the operation, the surgeons left the bullet near the patient’s heart
untouched since it would be fatal to try to remove it. Although the left side bullet could not be
removed, the surgery was still a success.
Everyone was relieved that the young soldier had been saved.
***
The
sky had been tinted with a fuzzy red-orange color and the sun was vanishing in the
western mountains when Noog Xi came upon the malarial clinic. She found her students working hard to take
care of the patients there. When night
fell, she dismissed them.
Before
calling it a day, Noog Xi stopped by the recuperating ward to check on the
patients, especially the one that had a critical surgery earlier. But before stepping inside the ward on the
eastern wing, someone called her name. She
stopped and turned around.
“Lwg!”
Noog Xi called surprisingly.
An
amiable girl who appeared much younger than her age, she had pale skin, a pair
of large dark brown eyes, and a softly shaped jaw. Her cheeks burned a bright red whenever she
was shied or embarrassed. Her full given
name was Lwg Dej, meaning dew water. She
came from the Yaj clan in Ban Some. Her
father was a retired Hmong warrior who fought many battles during the times of
World War II and the first Indochina war.
“It’s
late already. You should be in bed. What are you doing here?” Noog Xi asked.
“Niam
Laus Noog, I want to observe what you’re doing.
May I?” she asked timidly.
Noog
Xi could not say no to someone who wished to learn so she allowed it. “Come on in.”
The
student smiled gaily and followed her teacher inside the eastern-wing ward, a
recovery area reserved mainly for injured soldiers. Many beds inside the ward were occupied. Some patients were either lightly or deeply
asleep while a few others were awake.
Some have family members gathered around them with solemn and tired
countenances while others slept without the presence of a single family member.
Noog
Xi went through many patients’ charts and monitored their vital signs and IVs. When she was done with a patient, she wrote
down her observations and hung the clipboard chart back on the ledge of the patient’s
gurney. She then made her way through
multiple patients before approaching the young man who had surgery earlier in
the day.
The
young soldier remained still in an unconscious state. The head nurse quickly checked and jotted
down her observations.
“Niam
Laus Noog, this patient looks like he’d suffered through a lot. Will he be alright?” Lwg Dej asked in quiet
tone.
“He
is out of critical condition. With time,
he will recover,” she answered.
Just
then, the patient began to shiver abruptly and endured repeating chill episodes. Noog Xi quickly touched his forehead and felt
that it was burning hot. “He has a fever,”
she told. “Get him an extra blanket! I’ll call for the doctor!”
Lwg
Dej nodded.
The
two ran in their own direction.
Noog
Xi found Dr. Moreno in the triage desk.
He rushed over to examine and stabilize the patient. With Dr. Moreno’s instruction, Noog Xi gave medication
intravenously to help reduce the young soldier’s fever. Once he was calmed, Dr. Moreno left.
The
head nurse grabbed a bowl of cold water and a towel. She soaked the towel in water and was about
to use it to wipe the patient’s forehead to keep his temperature down, but Lwg Dej
stopped her.
“Niam
Laus Noog…if you don’t mind, let me do it,” she suggested.
Noog
Xi was baffled by the bashful girl’s offer, but agreed to it anyways. She handed the water bowl and towel to her
student.
“Niam
Laus Noog, you are probably very tired. Why
don’t you go rest? I will look after him
well,” Lwg Dej offered and gulped, “and the rest of the patients here too."
Noog
Xi nodded, but she knew that something smelled fishy. A girl who would not dare be the one to take
the initiative to do something, unless by force, Lwg Dej’s act of volunteering
was something to be suspicious of. But perhaps
this was not yet the right time for her to pry into her student’s personal
business, and she didn’t want to get involved either so she let the subject
matter go.
“Sure,”
she answered and smiled. “Thank you for
the offer. Now, I have freed up some
time to do other things. If you need
anything, let me know.”
Lwg
Dej nodded, and her teacher left the ward.
Turning
to the young soldier sleeping soundly on the bed, Lwg Dej dipped the towel in
the bowl of water. She twisted the towel
to squeeze some water out, and then used the towel to wipe the patient’s face
and arms.
As
she cleansed him, she noticed that his face was pale. Too pale that he appeared weak and
vulnerable. He looked almost like that
first time when she had met him. It was
a pity that when they finally have the chance to meet again, it was another encounter
where only she could stare at him.
It
must have been about two years ago that he stumbled upon her on the outskirts
of Ban Some. The air was refreshing and
the rolling green hills were pleasant that morning when she ventured into the
forest hunting for herbal medicine for her sick father. She was busied picking a handful of green
herbs when she felt a hand suddenly grabbing her shoulder. She had roamed that forest alone even as a child
and nothing had frightened her before.
But the woods that morning was so quiet and still that for the first
time in her life, she was afraid she had encountered if not a tiger, then a
ghost. She felt her head doubled in size,
Goosebumps running throughout her body, and sweats dripping down her face. Although her hands trembled, she strengthened
her heart and decided to turn around to take a look.
“Help
me,” mumbled a mysterious man, who clutched her shoulder even tighter. She screamed out of shock at his bloody
hands, and retreated—causing him to tumble with his front side, straight to the
ground.
“Help
me,” he repeated in a softer tone, reaching his hands out to her before falling
into unconsciousness.
Seeing
that the man was lying on the ground like a dead person, she stuck a finger out
to tap him to see if he was human or ghost.
When feeling that his body was solid and not transparent, she was
reassured of his humanness and decided to bend to his level to wake him
up. “Hey you!” she called. “Are you okay? Wake up!
Wake up!”
But
the man gave no response.
She
put the bundle of herbs into her back-basket, and using both her hands, turned
the man over to his back. With his front
body to her now, the girl noticed that this mysterious man was in fact, young
and a soldier. But his camouflage shirt
was drenched in blood, the same crimson color that stained his hands.
She
ripped his shirt opened, and saw blood oozing continuously from a wound near
his abdomen. The flattened elliptical
shape cut looked not like a bullet or an arrow wound, but a knife wound. She assumed that he must have been stabbed.
She
used his shirt to wipe the blood away, then pinched the skin folding around the
wound and applied pressure to stop the bleeding. Once she could let go without blood pouring
out, she left him there and scurried the herb-abundant forest for a green that
would heal his wound.
He
was a very lucky lad to have stumbled upon her, she thought. If not for the reason that her father, an old
warrior of the past wars, had sustained many injuries and was sick in his old
days—she would not have to constantly find him herbs and if so, she would be
unfamiliar with the plant that could save his life. She soon found it, a shrub flowering violet
buds whose leaves are broad and heart-shaped.
She quickly brought it back.
Using two rocks, she smashed the leaves into a fine paste. She then applied the herb to his wound, and tore
a piece of cloth from her green sash to help maintain the medicine in place.
After
treating him, she looked to the sun. Its
bright, round sphere and golden beams have reached the peak of the blue sky
already, and the girl knew that she must return home. Her father was waiting for his morning herbal
drink, and he would be worried sick if she was late. But what would she do with the injured
soldier. She could not drag him all the
way back to the village. It was a long
distance. Besides, he was a man. And men are always so heavy even when they
were the scrawny type—which he was not at all.
So, she decided that it was best to leave him there.
She
searched the forest once more and came back to the unconscious young man. She laid a couple of banana leaves next to
him, and dumped a pound or two of lychee fruits onto the leave plate. She then left her plhuaj taub—drinking-water gourd, beside him. Before leaving though, she decided to study
the young man so that she could remember his face.
Having
cleansed him up a little bit, she noticed that his features made out a quite
handsome fellow. His hairline formed a
wide v-shaped on the tip of his forehead, his eyebrows curved like a sword, his
eyelashes were dark and long, his nose bridge tall and straight, and his lips
narrowed, but dried at the moment. Even
in his sleep, she could sense that he was charming, and had an aura unlike any
young man in Ban Some.
The
more she gazed at him, the more her heart flickered and her cheeks blushed. It was an odd feeling that she couldn’t quite
make out. She had watched her father in
his sleep before, and she never felt anything but worries. But then she had never looked at other young
men due to her cowardly shy character, so she couldn’t tell whether the feeling
was general to all young men or was it specific to just one man.
Her
heart felt heavy, and she didn’t want to leave him. If not for the reason that she felt a
connection with him even though she didn’t know who he was or where he came
from, then for the reason that she was going to abandon an injured human being
so her conscious was becoming guilty for the act. But she had no choice. It was either him, or her father. “I’m leaving you for now,” she said reservedly. “You’ll have to suffer alone the rest of the
day. If your people don’t come get you,
then we’ll meet again when the sun rises tomorrow.”
The
girl brushed her right hand against his high forehead, her jaws turned into a
wide smile. She then straightened her
body and walked away. And at the instant
that she left, the young man opened his eyes slightly with his right hand
reaching out for her once more, as if begging her not to leave him. But she was unaware of this, and he fell back
into an unconscious state.
She
came home to brew medicine and looked after her father the rest of the day. When she returned to the same spot the following
morning, he was already gone. The only
things she found were the banana leaves and scraps of lychee skin. She smiled, glad that he was alive. Whoever he was and wherever he came from, she
did not know. But she looked to the sky,
hopeful that the heavens would allow them to meet again someday.
She
then went about her daily activity of gathering fresh herbs for her
father. It was not until she tied the
handful of greens into a bundle that she noticed her silver bracelet was gone
from her left wrist. The bracelet was an
amulet that her mother gave to her as a child to ward off evil spirits. It had a pair of phoenix heads meeting at the
ends, and attached to the heads were two tiny bells that jingled whenever she swung
her left arm. The sound, though, had become
so normal to her ears that she had learned to zone it out, so that she had only
just noticed its disappearance at the moment.
As
she grew older, the bracelet became tighter and she recently had a silversmith
enlarged the jewel. But the silversmith
made it too large, and it was loose around her wrist—falling out a couple of
times in the past few days. She was
planning on taking it back to get it fix, but it was too late now.
In
her mind, she retraced her steps to where the bracelet could have fallen off,
and the only image that popped up was when she was helping the young soldier. Her bracelet would have slipped to the ground
when he grabbed her and she withdrew.
She
quickly rushed back to the area where she treated the young man. She searched through the bushes and
vegetation, looking within the vicinity to see if her bracelet might have fell
somewhere around there. But even after a
morning’s search, she found nothing.
And
it wasn’t until she saw the medics rushed a wounded soldier through the doors
of the hospital that she spotted a phoenix head, silver bracelet encircling
tightly around his wrist. The arm that
bore the bracelet had hung over the stretcher, and as the medics glided him
across the hospital hall, the bracelet’s pair of bells jingled the same melody
that was so natural to her ears.
She
was confident that he was the same young man, but to ensure that every piece of
puzzle fit to form a clear picture, she lifted the cotton blanket covering his body
and slightly pulled the patient shirt above his waist, just enough to expose a
scar that would be present if he was the same young soldier she once
helped. And surely enough, it was
there—a discoloration about two inches in length that felt bumpy when she ran
her fingers across it.
Lwg Dej smiled and covered him up again. She then pulled his chart to read. “Xyooj Vaj Huam,” she uttered the name
written under the line—Patient Name.
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