The
rainy season had begun. The ground was
often muddy as the raindrops fell nonstop on the tin-roof buildings. And, the presence of rain meant that the
atmosphere was often moist and cold—perfect whether for people to easily catch
colds. So, the hospital was not only
swamped with injured soldiers but sick civilians.
Although
the nurse trainees’ schedule was hectic, Lwg Dej would often make time to come
accompany Xyooj Vaj Huam, even if it meant having to skip her break and meal
times. After cleaning and changing him,
she would tell him stories of hope and courage to keep him company. And while that brief period was exhausting, Lwg
Dej never felt tire for she was experiencing a kind of happiness that she’d
never had before.
On
the seventh morning after his admittance into the hospital, Noog Xi came to
check Xyooj Vaj Huam’s vital signs as usual.
And as usual, she found Lwg Dej resting her head on the bed next to the
patient. While the two slept, Noog Xi
quietly checked Xyooj Vaj Huam’s temperature and blood pressure. His fever had subsided and his vital signs
were stabled.
Just
as she finished writing down her observation, she heard a moaning sound. She turned to look and saw that the patient
was mumbling something. “Water….water…water….”
he called hoarsely.
His
mumble woke Lwg Dej up. “Is he speaking?”
she asked tiredly.
“I
think he’s regaining consciousness,” Noog Xi remarked.
“Niam
Laus Noog, you are here?” Lwg Dej asked, and quickly stood up.
The
teacher nodded. “Get Dr. Moreno!” she demanded. “I think he wants water. I’ll give some to him.”
Lwg
Dej nodded, and ran out to the find the doctor.
“Water…water
…” the patient repeated, moving his head slightly right and left.
Noog
Xi hastily poured water into a glass cup and brought it back to the patient. She then lifted his head, and slowly gave him a
few drops of water. After drinking, he sluggishly
opened his eyes.
She
smiled. “How are you feeling?”
He
scooted his body up. “A little sore,” he
replied, touching his wounds.
“Take
it easy,” she said, and helped to support him.
“Are
you a nurse?”
She
nodded.
Just
then, Dr. Moreno and Diana rushed into the room with Lwg Dej following behind. Dr. Moreno examined the patient and asked him
a question. Noog Xi was about to
interpret but Xyooj Vaj Huam hastily answered in broken English.
“You
are doing well,” the Filipino doctor commented.
“A few more days in the hospital and you may be discharged.”
“Thank
you,” he said.
Dr.
Moreno padded him on the shoulder, and smiled.
He and Diana then left the ward.
“You
must be hungry,” Noog Xi remarked. “I’ll
call food service for you.”
But
at the moment that Noog Xi was about to walk away, a food service employee
appeared. “Food for Xyooj Vaj Huam,” he
called.
“Yes,”
Noog Xi answered and grabbed the food tray.
“Thank you, but who order these foods?”
“I
did,” Lwg Dej answered, her cheeks blushing.
“Thank
you,” Noog Xi said to her student.
Noog
Xi placed the food platter on top of a movable metal tray and slid it across
Xyooj Vaj Huam’s front. “Your food is
here. Can you eat it by yourself?”
He
nodded, and scooted up to a near sitting position. He lifted his right hand to grab a spoon, and
while he was about to dip the spoon into the porridge bowl—he noticed that something
was missing.
His
face turned sour, and he pushed the metal tray aside. He then turned his bed upside down, searching
for a missing item.
“What
are you looking for?” Noog Xi asked in a concern tone. “You’ve just recovered. You shouldn’t be so aggressive.”
“My
bracelet!” he answered frantically. “Did
anyone take it off my wrist or did it fall somewhere?”
“I
don’t remember seeing a bracelet?” she replied.
“No,
it couldn’t have possibly fallen off by itself.
Someone must have taken it. It
has a pair of phoenix heads and a pair of bells…” he said and stopped upon
hearing a jingling sound. It was coming
from the nurse standing behind the one talking to him.
A
troubled expression spread across Lwg Dej’s face, and she quickly tried to
cover the silver bracelet with her right hand.
“You! You stole my bracelet!” he slandered
disbelievingly.
Lwg
Dej shook her head to him, and then to Noog Xi.
“Give
it back to me!” he shouted demandingly.
“Lwg,”
Noog Xi called to the girl. “Do you have
his bracelet?”
She
shook her head.
“She’s
lying,” he shouted. “I’ve had that
bracelet for so long. I can tell what
belongs to me.”
“Lwg,
if it’s not yours, give it back to him.”
Still,
Lwg Dej shook her head, reluctant to give up the bracelet. “It’s mine,” she wanted to say. “It was the only thing my mother left
me.” But no matter how big she opened
her mouth, only silence came out and she couldn’t defend herself.
Observing
the nurse’s hesitation, Xyooj Vaj Huam grabbed her left hand and pulled the
bracelet off of her wrist. “I don’t
believe that hospital staff can act this low!” he libeled, slipping the
bracelet back on his right wrist and cuddling back in bed disappointingly.
His
blunt words stung like sharp knives cutting through Lwg Dej’s heart. Her eyes turned watery and tears tumbled down
like raindrops to the wooden floor.
“Xyooj
Vaj Huam!” Noog Xi called. “You may be a
patient, but that’s too much! Don’t you
know…” She was about to reveal Lwg Dej’s
tireless efforts in caring for him, but saw the girl shaking her head not to
divulge what she had done. Although Noog
Xi couldn’t understand that reticent student of hers, she agreed to comply for
she knew that Lwg Dej had a kind heart.
Although
still saddened by Xyooj Vaj Huam’s ill manners, Lwg Dej quickly wiped her tears
away. She forced a smile on for her
teacher and pretended that she was alright.
Then, she ran out and returned to work.
But,
Lwg Dej couldn’t lie to her teacher for Noog Xi knew the girl’s character well. She could tell that for such a diffident
person like Lwg Dej to go out of her way to tend to his needs, it must hurt
excessively to have her efforts stepped all over by the one person she truly
cared about. So after Lwg Dej left, Noog
Xi turned to Xyooj Vaj Huam. “Sometimes,
appearance may be deceiving. While you
rest to regain your strength, I hope you would reflect on your actions just
now.” She reprimanded him, and left.
For
many days afterwards, Lwg Dej kept to herself—saying nothing and doing no more
than shaking or nodding her head when interacting with the others. So after a class session ended, Noog Xi stopped
the girl from leaving.
“Xyooj
Vaj Huam wants to get some fresh air. I
promised him that tomorrow will be suitable.
But I’m a bit busy so I want you to take him.”
“I’m
sorry. I don’t think I will be able to
help out,” she replied sternly.
“Are
you sure? This is a good chance to mend
any misunderstanding.”
“What
misunderstanding? I’ve treated him like
I’ve treated every other patient.
There’s nothing to talk about.” She
was indifferent. And, without saying
another word or hesitating, she left the classroom.
Receiving
no volunteer, Noog Xi ended up wheeling Xyooj Vaj Huam to get some air the next
day. She faced him looking at the karst
mountain terrain. Although there weren’t
much sunshine during the raining season, the woods covering the hills and
mountain sides were so luxuriant that their color was illuminating a deep green
hue. The sun shone bleakly in between
dark clouds, and the breezy air sent Xyooj Vaj Huam’s hair flying in the wind.
“As
a child, I’ve longed for adventures in those beautiful woods,” he said and
laughed, “but when I finally got the chance to, it wasn’t as how I’d imagined
it. It is a frightening place, and going
there means that one’s life hangs on the edge of thread. Fortunately for me, although I was on the
verge of death twice, I’ve been saved this time by the hospital and the first
time, by her.”
“So
who saved you the first time?” Noog Xi asked curiously.
“I
don’t know either,” he answered and sighed.
“I never saw my savior’s face, but only a blurry image of her back. When I regained consciousness, she was no
longer there. The only thing I found was
that silver bracelet.”
“The
one you snatched from my student’s hand?”
He
nodded. “Now, do you understand why I
reacted that way? I didn’t mean to be
disrespectful to that nurse, but I’ve never had the chance to properly thank my
savior. If it was not for her, I would
have probably left this world already. The
silver bracelet is my only clue to finding her.”
Although
it was only noon, the sky already appeared like twilight had befallen. The sun ceased to exist in the heavens, and
soon, thunderous clouds roared from afar.
“It
looks like rain will pour down any minute now.
Shall we go back inside?” Noog Xi asked.
Xyooj
Vaj Huam nodded.
The
head nurse turned his wheelchair around, and while she rolled him inside, he
said, “That nurse, I don’t think she would come to see me again. Tell her that I’m sorry.”
***
Xyooj
Vaj Huam recovered well, and quickly too.
Not many days have passed before Dr. Moreno signed his discharge papers. On the day that he was leaving the hospital, Noog
Xi went to check on him one last time. Xyooj
Vaj Huam had slipped back into his combat camouflage uniform. Healthy again, he stood tall and
handsome—resembling very much in appearance to an older man standing on his
left. Holding his right arm was a perky
woman, with short curly hair and fair features.
“How
do I look?” Xyooj Vaj Huam suddenly asked when he caught Noog Xi’s presence.
She
smiled at him. “Very handsome,” she
responded. “Like an undefeatable soldier.”
“I
hope so too,” he replied with a smile. He
turned to the man and woman standing next to him. “Mom and Dad, this is Nurse Yaj Noog. She took care of me.”
“Thank
you, for taking care of our son. We are greatly
indebted to you,” the man remarked appreciably.
“We live far from Sam Thong, and due to work we couldn’t come visit him
sooner.”
“I
too thank you. As his mother, I should
be here by his side when he needed me the most but what can I do? If my husband doesn’t come, then I can’t step
foot anywhere,” the woman said and wept.
“It’s
alright, Mom,” Xyooj Vaj Huam said and hugged his mother. “I know that you and Dad are busy. I won’t hold anything against you too.”
“Phauj—Auntie, don’t be sad,” remarked
Noog Xi. “I’m glad that I was able to
help out. But I must not be given all
the credit. It was the hard work of all
the hospital staff together that made this happy outcome possible.”
“You
are correct,” replied the father.
“Let
me examine you one last time before I let you walk out of here,” Noog Xi
said. She took a stethoscope off her
neck and listened to Xyooj Vaj Huam’s heart and lungs. She took a pressure cuff and tightened it
around his upper left arm, measuring his blood pressure as well. “Everything looks healthy.” She said at last. “Your discharge papers are completed, so you
may leave when you’re ready. I shall
take my leave now.”
“Thank
you,” the Xyooj family said together.
Noog
Xi nodded, and stepped out of the ward and the main hospital. She went on a frenzy search for Lwg Dej—for
she knew that this was the last chance the girl had to straighten things out
with Xyooj Vaj Huam. But before locating
the girl, Noog Xi passed by a path flanked by wooden benches where she heard
shouting voices, like a couple was arguing.
As a hospital staff and head nurse, it was her responsibility to ensure
that there was no use of violence in or near the hospital setting. So, she quickly examined the area for a
quarreling couple, and found that the person doing the yelling at the moment
was one of her students.
“Nag!”
she called to a tall and slender girl. Her
full name was Ntxhi Nag, or rain whispers.
She came from a respectable family of the Xyooj clan in Phak Khet. Her father, however, kept two wives and the
girl bored many scars of abuse by her father and stepmother. But her eyes were filled with resilience and
strength, and her heart showered with kindness for those who deserved it. Although she was the youngest among her
cohort, she was wise for her age and not someone to be trifled with.
“Niam
Laus Noog,” Ntxhi Nag answered back.
“Nag,
what’s going on here?”
“Niam
Laus Noog, this jerk stole pictures of me and I’m not happy about it! I asked him to erase the photos but he just wouldn’t
listen!”
Noog
Xi turned away from Ntxhi Nag, and found her staring at a young man who looked
younger than she but a year or two older than her student. He had a short military-cut black hair, friendly
eyes, a tall nose-bridge, and a pleasing smile that made out a sweet face. His hands held tightly onto a camera, which
was hung around his neck.
“My
student claimed that you took pictures of her without her permission. Is this true?” she asked gently.
He
chuckled a little and then nodded.
“If
she said anything to offend you, I do apologize on her behalf. However, you must know that you are not allowed
to take photos on hospital grounds. I
hope you respect this rule and destroy any pictures you took here.”
“I’m
sorry, older sister. It’s just that I’ve
never seen anyone as beautiful and lovely as the sister standing behind
you. I just couldn’t control my hands. It kept on snapping my camera to capture her
beauty.”
The
young man’s praising words ticked Ntxhi Nag off some more. To her, he sounded more like he was teasing
than flattering her physical appearance.
“But
I’m truly sorry, and will do away with the film roll,” he said. He then pulled the film roll out of his
camera and tossed it into a nearby trash bin.
“Thank
you for cooperating. You sound like a
decent young man. How should I address
you?” Noog Xi asked.
“My
surname is Yaj. My given name is Tshaj
Koob.”
“Yaj
Tshaj Koob—it’s a good name. I am Yaj
Noog. My student here is Xyooj Nag.”
“Xyooj
Nag…Nag…a name that makes me feel so lonesome,” Yaj Tshaj Koob remarked in a
daze. “Paj Huam Tsav blooms in the rain—nag, the ducks cuddled under the broad taro leaves. Rain pours in my heart, wondering if love
will sprout?”
“Jerk!”
Ntxhi Nag shouted, and threw Yaj Tshaj Koob’s camera bag at him. He quickly jerked to avoid being hit. “Don’t use my name again in your dirty poems! And I better not catch you steal pictures of
me again or else I’ll make sure you see hell next time!” After warning him, she ran off.
Yaj
Tshaj Koob smiled contently. “Is your
student always this feisty?” he asked.
“I’ve never met such a girl before.”
Noog
Xi shook her head, and then went on with her search to find Lwg Dej. She found the girl caring for patients at the
malarial clinic. Lwg Dej was so focused
on her work that she did not even notice her teacher’s presence.
“Lwg!”
Noog Xi called.
“Niam
Laus Noog!” the girl responded. “Do you
need me for something?”
“We
need to talk.” Lwg Dej followed her
teacher to a corner, away from the patients.
“Niam
Laus Noog, what’s the matter?”
“Lwg,
I know that I have no right to interfere but I wanted to tell you so you won’t
have any regrets. Xyooj Vaj Huam is
leaving today. If you want to see him,
you should go right now.”
Lwg
Dej smiled. “Niam Laus Noog, why do you
keep telling me about him? What do I
need to go see him for?”
“Lwg.”
“Niam
Laus Noog, please be assured that I feel no more connected to him than to any
other patient we receive here. You don’t
have to bring him up again,” she said and smiled. “If you don’t have anything else for me, I’m
returning to work now.”
“What
about the bracelet?” Noog questioned, stomping the girl. “I know you well, Lwg, and you are not the
type to take anything from anyone, unless it belongs to you. Given your expertise in herbal medicine too,
you must be that girl, the one who saved his life in the forest.”
Lwg
Dej was astonished to hear her teacher pieced the puzzle correctly
together. A million thoughts blazed
through her mind, thinking about how to respond. She turned around to face her teacher once
more. “So what if I am? That doesn’t prove any special relationship
between him and me. We’re merely
strangers who just happened to stumble upon one another. And, didn’t you teach us that as nurse
practitioners—we should help all those who need our help, whether foe or
friend?” After retorting her teacher’s
intention, Lwg Dej turned her back to her teacher, and walked away.
“He
said to tell you that he’s sorry. He
only behaved that way because the bracelet is precious to him.”
Noog
Xi’s words weighted heavily on Lwg Dej’s heart and mind. Her eyes became watery, but she squeezed her
hands into a fist and repressed her tears from coming out. With her back to her teacher, she pretended
not to let the news affect her and continued to walk stealthily away.
“I
know you’re suffering, Lwg,” Noog Xi remarked.
“Being stubborn will only hurt you more.”
Although
she feigned indifference in front of Noog Xi, the pain of feeling attached to
someone and missing that person dearly lingered strongly within her heart. So when her teacher was gone, she sneaked out
to take a peek at him.
Hiding
behind a light pole, she found Xyooj Vaj Huam standing in front of a military
jeep. Gazing at him made her heart beat
strongly with each warm light beam that touched her face, and she felt a rush
of adrenaline to run toward him to reveal her feelings. But her feet were frozen, and they just
wouldn’t budge.
Then,
a car pulled up and stopped behind the jeep, and a noble young lady dashed out
to Xyooj Vaj Huam’s bosom. She embraced
him, and the two appeared fond and intimate with one another.
“Do
you not love me anymore?” Xyooj Vaj Huam asked of the girl. “How come you didn’t even bother to show up
this whole time?”
“I
knew that you were a strong person. You
won’t die that easily.”
“And
what happens if I did?”
“Vaj,
don’t say that,” she said to him angrily.
She then turned toward his mother.
“Phauj, look at Vaj. He knows
that I’m busy overseeing Father’s farm and he still asks me such a silly
question. If I don’t love him, I
wouldn’t have bothered to even show up.”
She complained upsettingly.
Xyooj
Vaj Huam’s mother chuckled. “Me Ntxhais Npauj Kub—Daughter Npauj Kub,
don’t get mad at Vaj. He’s still not
clear-headed and just teasing you. No
matter what, you two will be married soon.
I can’t wait to have you become my daughter-in-law, so bear with him.”
“Marry?”
Lwg Dej remarked surprisingly, eavesdropping on their conversation. But that single word felt like the heavens
have tumbled upon her and crushing her to the core of Earth. She felt lightheaded, as if her heart had
suddenly stopped beating.
“Don’t
be mad at me anymore,” Xyooj Vaj Huam’s fiancée said to him. “Come, I know your superior is waiting for
your return. How about I make things up
by spending the whole day with you?”
She
then dragged Xyooj Vaj Huam into the jeep.
“Driver, we’re all in now. You
may go,” she instructed.
The
jeep’s engine rumbled and as the jeep began to roll, its powerful hind wheels
sent dust flying in every direction. Lwg
Dej watched as the jeep disappeared into the distance, leaving a puny whirlwind
swirling dust behind it. This time, no
matter how hard she tried, she couldn’t contain her water eyes from dripping
tears. They fell down, forming a stream
on her cheeks.
She
quickly reflected on everything. “Why am
I crying for someone who doesn’t even know me?
Did I fancy that if he finds out that I saved him then he would suddenly
feel affectionate towards me?” she pondered, and realized that she was just
being silly all this time. She needed to
become a stronger person, more protective of her heart. Lwg Dej wiped her tears and putting on a smile,
she returned to work. But deep within, she
knew that her heart would never be the same.
***
As
the monsoon season came to an end, so did Noog Xi’s nursing curriculum. Fifty young ladies have started in the
program, but it was so intensive and demanding that slowly, they dropped out
one by one until only six were left. And
having survived the program, the remaining six were among the best of their
class.
Their
graduation ceremony was not glamorous like the university graduation that Noog
Xi remembered in Sidney. Instead, it was
an intimate and austere service that took place inside the hospital’s
conference room. The event was hosted by
Noog Xi and Diana, with Dr. Weldon and Pop Buell there to present the nurses
with their certificate of completion. Family
members of the six graduating nurses came to support their daughter or sister
as well.
“I
am so proud of this first class,” remarked Dr. Weldon as his voice echoed
throughout the room. “You all are truly
pioneers who will not only do great service to Americans, but to all the people
of Laos. Ladies and gentlemen, along
with our very own Nurse Noog, I give you the magnificent seven!”
The audience members applauded. The nurses stood up and threw their nurses’
caps into the air, signaling the dawning of an era of Hmong female nurses in
Laos.
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